Scandal : A Black Diamond Novel by T. Ashleigh

Author:T. Ashleigh [Ashleigh, T.]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2023-08-21T16:00:00+00:00

CHAPTER TWELVE

AUSTIN

After reading the same line of my e-book for the fifth time, I give up, closing my Kindle and setting it down beside me on the hammock. I haven’t been able to concentrate since that kiss yesterday.

Beck. Freaking. Kissed. Me.

I feel like I’m floating. Living in a dream. I never expected it to happen, even though I really wanted it to. I like Beck. It’s odd to say because I never like anyone. There’s just something about him. I don’t even know him, but he makes me feel human. Like I’m not something broken, in desperate need of fixing. How is it that someone I barely know can stir up such deep emotions?

Maybe it’s the island fun I didn’t know I needed. I can enjoy my time with Beck here and then go back to my life with a totally different outlook on myself. A whirlwind romance, just minus the love part. That’s doable right? I can have a fling. Tons of people do it. I can too. I think this would be good for me. It may not be foolproof, but my life has been set to a schedule for as long as I can remember. Maybe it’s time I did something a little more reckless. And what’s more reckless than having a summer fling with some guy you don’t really know?

He’s nice, he doesn’t judge me, and sex with Beck, holy shit. I can’t even imagine how good it’d be. If that kiss was anything to go by, I think it’d be amazing. I deserve that. Hell, I need it. But how do I make it happen? Should I ask him if he’d be open to the idea? I don’t want to come off desperate, even though I kinda am.

But what if he’s not interested? That rejection would not only sting, but be really embarrassing. Now I’m back peddling and remembering why I never put myself out there in the first place.

Ugh! Damn it, why is this so hard? It should be the easiest thing in the world. I like you; do you like me? Yes? Good, let’s have sex.

I swear hooking up looks easier in the movies. Really, everything looks easier in the movies. I blame Hollywood for all my faulty thoughts on love, family, and relationships. They’re the reason ninety percent of Americans get their hearts broken. We set the expectation too high and then are flooded with disappointment when it doesn’t happen.

Or maybe that’s just life and I need to suck it the fuck up.

Okay, I need to stop thinking about this for now. Clearly I have no idea what the hell I want to do and stressing about it isn't going to help anything. I’ll go back to reading. Let my brain focus on something other than Beck for a while.

Snagging my Kindle, I’m about to open it when it’s suddenly snatched from my grasp.

“What the fuck?” I yelp, pulling off my sunglasses and sitting up. My aggravation turns to terror instantly when I spot the monkey from my first night here.

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